I Write Female-centric fiction As a Form of Reclamation
Women write women differently than men do.
That’s what I started to notice when, in early 2016, I started a personal project to read only books written by women.
I wondered if I was just 'damaged goods', or if I had missed that day in class when surely everyone else had been taught how to be an Adult. (I wasn't, and I hadn't.)
All the questions I was asking about my marriage and my work and the way that I was living my life ... they all came down to what I thought and how I felt about womanhood, the world, and being a woman in the world. I spent my first six months trying to - get this - find answers. But they weren't the kind of questions we find answers to. They were the kind of questions we live answers to.
They were questions about self-reflection, self-permission, self-belief, self-definition. In other words, they were all questions about my own personal philosophy, my own values + beliefs.
I believe that the quality of your life directly correlates to the quality of questions you are asking yourself ... about yourself, your womanhood, your role + purpose here, The Whole Thing¹.
And this is what I believe needs to come after the crisis of womanhood. The crisis leads to the awakening, and the awakening is an invitation. It's an invitation to question everything, to seek out new catalysts, to define who we are through our own personal philosophies. Ultimately, it's an invitation to become the heroines of our own lives. It's an invitation to become ourselves.
For a year, I went on this quest for womanhood. I curated my own 'study' and I read and watched and absorbed everything I could on 'the woman question.' (And let's clear up any confusion right away: I am still studying and absorbing and awakening and exploring, lest you think I've 'graduated' to some enlightened state of womanhood. Ha!)
I owe so much to the women who left the breadcrumbs for me to follow. They helped me navigate the deepest dark of the woods, until I found just enough light to begin to make my own way. And they helped me learn that there are so many of us out here fumbling around, wondering all these same things, questioning our relationships and our careers and our inherent selves, and ... not talking to each other about it. (Why do we do this?)
And here's the thing: there could be a woman five yards away from me in the woods — there could be a woman right there within arm's reach! — but we can't even see each other struggling with our womanhood because we're so deep in our own darkness and the brambles and branches around us. It took me a long time to find those women and their breadcrumbs, and during that long time I felt lost + I felt alone.
And this is why I'm passionate about women waking up. This is why I do this work.
If I can help another woman find that little bit of light she needs to make her own way, too, then I think the collective womanhood, Women with a capital W, are a little better off. Because even though I absolutely believe that we each experience our own awakenings in unique (but similar) ways, still ... every time one of us awakens and finds that little bit of light we need, we're at the same time casting a little bit of light back for others who are still in their deepest dark, searching.
This is how we change the world. As conscious women.
As women waking up.
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1. The Whole Thing, being the way the whole universe/cosmos fundamentally works (god? goddess? angels? demons? souls? aliens? time travel? reincarnation? whatever "is") as well as your place within it, according to your personal belief system.